Broken Please fix it. "The Christian Church today"

The Christian Church today is broken. I recently was pushed out of a Church that I was a member of or thought to be a member and also a so-called Deacon for 11 years. I was head of the Feed the homeless Ministry, helped with announcements, headed up prayer Ministry for after each service not just one of the service because I was at all of them anyway, played bass for the worship team ( backup of coarse ). Helped with visit the sick Ministry. Helped with the prison ministry, and at one time for many years 6 to 7 years helped with the youth ministry, helped with the security team, ran sound for several years, cleaned the Church for several years. I never expected any of this to happen to me, 11 years ago I walked in this Church with a very bad drug problem, God healed of that and did so much more for me than I ever expected.
However I recently have had and still do have some health issue’s blood pressure and being overweight doesn’t help. My doctors all wanted me be admitted in the hospital the same weekend as feed the homeless Ministry. I refused to be admitted. As a matter of fact I never said anything about this to anyone including my wife. The Ministry I was doing was too important to me. Well a few weeks later the blood pressure went way out of control and I felt like I was dying. The doctor put me on blood pressure meds and that seemed to help for a week or so, but I just felt awe full. My doctor prescribed to me to work and that was it. Go home a rest not even Church for a month. I spoke with my Pastor about this through an email and he was very upset with me. Said if you miss one service, you are no longer a deacon and can no longer serve in any capacity at Grace Fellowship Church in Sunnyvale again. He never said oh that’s terrible that you are going through this. In fact he has used the fact that one of his friends and leaders of a Ministry in his church ripping me off on a contract deal to rebuild my bathrooms at my house that I paid him for, as an excuse to throw me away like filthy rages.
Church that I was attending said they are a church that doesn’t like churches. Maybe it is this theory that they have adopted that is keeping them from doing the same things that God commands us to do, love our neighbors in fact Jesus says to love your enemy. If other Church’s love folks then this church would have a reason not to. Things that make you go hummm. I just hope that there are Christian Church’s out there that truly love others. Not what they are doing, but loving them. I haven’t felt the love of Christ coming from this pastor for some time now. Someone else should be doing that, he is just supposed to teach and lead worship. Oh and lets not forget, tell you that you can’t serve God at his Church if you don’t do just want he wants you to do.
My prayer is this, “Lord please help me to overcome this, I come into your throne room with boldness of Christ and ask for Grace and Mercy and your healing hands on me. I forgive those that seem to hurt me, and ask you to forgive me. If it is your will help me to find a Christian Church that will love me for who I am as you do, not love me only if I’m doing what they want me to. I lift up all those that have been abused by this pastor, I pray that they to are healed, and I pray that you heal this man, this pastor of the hurts he has that causes him to lash out at push people away instead of loving them, heal him oh Lord.”
I don’t have the answers to fix this Church; I am so weak from my health issues. I am now waiting to hear back from my doctors as to what I should do, whether I should go to the emergancy room, or to an allergy specialist, don’t know. They said they call hours ago. I hope to hear from them soon. My soul is so tiered now, my heart is broken, I meant my wife at this Church and married her there, and I even ask her to marry me at the Church. This was the present God gave me that I am taking with me from there.
Briefly after my health left me, my wife’s parent where involved in a horrific car accident, both was care flighted from the scene. Elisabeth’s Dad is still fighting for his life in ICU. No one from my Church has come to see her dad that is going on 3 weeks in ICU. Elisabeth is very hurt, there where so many people she regarded as friends that have not been there for her in this hour of need. I have been so sick, that I can’t go every day to the emergency room like she does. She has such a hard time seeing her dad like that and should never have to see him alone. I had hoped someone would volunteer to go with her. It is so hard to tell someone else what to do when we are all so down because of all this. I only had 2 folks call asking what they can do from my church. But we don’t know what to tell them. Friends and co-works have provided food for us, since we are not home long enough to cook anything or go to the grocery store. The house is a mess; we don’t have the drive to clean.
My wife refuses to ask for help she say’s if you have to ask how can I help then you are missing the mark to begin with. I think she is correct. If you read this, please respond with a comment or two. I’d really like to know if anyone thinks I should ever attend any Church again. I’d like to know if anyone else has experienced these same problems, and what you did. I know that I am serving God, and that is what is important. You can serve God at home with family, at work, at restaurants, at hospitals. You don’t have to be in Church to serve God.
Thanks Monty Rogers